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I’m a native mandarin speaker and China’s politics seems so opaque af. All I really know if the real life experiences as like a civillian, and stories my parents told me, and my 8 years of childhood memories there. No clue what the fuck is happening inside Beijing.

I mean I can tell you about my personal experiences of what life is like, but I don’t know about how the political system even fuctions. Even my parents that grew up there and lived there for decades there doesn’t know wtf is going on in the politics. Its blurry, it’s confusing. In my view, it feels kinda like another imperial dynasty, but with CCP as a party at top instead of a traditional monarch.

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Also: Regarding June 4, 1989, I asked my parents about it and they just said “oh there was something happened with university students… civil unrest” that’s all they know. Guangdong Province was where they were at and its far away from Beijing. Now that we’re in the US and told them about the western side of the story, and they’re like: “whatever happened, it was probably necessary, its not like the country could just allow such chaos to happen” so… yeah… they don’t really care. I suspect most people in China don’t pay too close attention either.

My older brother made a huge fuss about it when he learned it in the US, I think it was in school where he learned it, totally shocked him and shattered his worldview. I remember him telling me about it, and telling me to “Google Tiananmen Square Massacre”. Now he’s seems like a conspiracy theorist that distrusts any and all governements, that shock is probably what turned him to Antivax, I mean the shock of his schools in China hiding the other side of the story.

This little shit sleeps so comfy meanwhile everyone in my toxic household is yelling and throwing insults at each other all the time.

Such a cute little shit, I wanna become a cat.

Just wanna end my life and reincarnate as a cat.

Well said, Spice Hoarder

Dude could’ve just said “the evidence is AI generated” and ignored it…

Its not an invasion, its “spreading democracy”

It’s not subjugating other cultures, it’s a “Liberation”

There’s a reason they call it the “People’s Liberation Army” and not “The People’s Oppression Army”, its branding. It makes people feel free.

Hong Kong is being “Liberated” from the British… PRC is all about liberating you fron colonialism, but don’t ask what 2019 was about, those are 100% rIoTeRs, duh. Liberation. So liberated there’s a firewall on the internet. So liberated it’s illegal to strike, so liberated my existence as a second-born is a crime. So liberated that rural people as in a different caste and never welcomed in cities.

Problems with IRL:

1. Trump admin will throw me to el salvador

2 My family of origin is ethnic Chinese… very anti trans, bigoted af, they’ll call me a “變態” (“pervert”, “sick-minded person”, or something like that)

I want be BORN as a girl, transitioning is dangerous af.

Its for crying

My mom said my head was too big… so they had to c section

But she also said “maybe you were too lazy to crawl out of there”

lmao

maybe I saw the future and was like “ah hell naw” and wanted to nope out of this incarnation

Holy shit, punniest meme I’ve see on Lemmy. xD

Excapism: Watching TV shows, movies, anime,

Writing… my life story… sometimes fiction… sometimes poetry…

Watching youtube videos about random stuff, sometimes gameplay, sometimes educational, sometimes irl stuff (the less depressing stuff fun stuff)

Just to let you know, I have double the normal existential crisis since

1. I wasn’t even supposed to be born. I was during the One Child Policy of China but I was the second child… its a rare chance that I’m even alive

2. As an immigrant, I have constant identity crisis. Not American enough to be American, not Chinese enough to be Chinese. I want to embrace my language but I keep getting traumatized by it. I keep thinking about the alternate timeline where I had to live in China behind the stupid firewall bullshit.

3. I also nearly got kidnapped since I ran away from home when I was 6 years old due to a fight with my brother so I got scared and ran. I keep reliving that memory and just think what a horrible life that’d be to be trafficked somewhere.

I don’t think it really goes away, you just have to deal with it.

Watching movies that makes me cry is very powerful, endorphins feels SOO GOOD. Its hard to explain. Endorphins is the best natural drug there ever is.

xD

I’d sleep fine.

There are countless alternate timelines where the world is living in the nuclear winter after Cuban Missle Crisis went hot, do you care about those people?

What about the alient planets where the alien dictator is brutally oppressing their planet’s people?

So yeah fucking yes gimme the rich life pls.

MY NAME IS HOUOUIN KYOUMA, MEMBER OF THE COMMITTEE OF 300, DICTATOR OF NIPPON!

Mine was named “Georgia”

I renamed her to “Sunshine” officially in the microchip registry

But everyone in my house just call her 貓貓 (maau maau)

Depressed, 3/10.

Idk how to be independent so I’m stuck with my family of origin.

Anxious all the time, hearing Cantonese being spoken triggers me.

One thing I do appreciate is somehow the universe let me out of China, so now at least I can watch Youtube videos in depression, can’t imagine having to live behind the firewall. I personally didn’t even have internet when I was in China.

Could be worse so… eh…

FUCK TRUMP FUCK XI FUCK PUTIN

DOWN WITH THE CCP

DEATH TO XI JINPING

Lol that feels so good, this would’ve been illegal to say in China xD

My mom used to be 70% love 30% abuse, now its like 20% love 80% abuse. My older brother acts so threatening.

Seriously, if I had an older sister instead, maybe it would be more peaceful. I feel like males are just so aggressive, and I’m saying this as a dude…

well I mean my mom is also aggressive so… eh… idk honestly.

2/10 now that I have talk about it and it make me more depressed and I just feel like my soul melted into a puddle of depression again.

Older, more responsibilities…

Is that “better”?

My parents really make me wanna hate my own race sometimes

I have a negative association with Cantinese because of all the truama…

I’m not sure I even wanna teach my future children my language, I kinda just wanna forget it.

This way I create more “distance” between us, so my mom cannot go to my kids and try to manipulate them because of language barrier that will make it harder.

Idk I’m just thinking out loud

If they grew up in a democracy (including flawed democracies such as USA (at least it was pre-2025)), they are being so disrespectful to those that lived before them, all their struggles of sweat and blood, all so that they won’t even cast a fucking ballot. Idiots.

If they grew up in a dictatorship… then I can kinda understand. They have a valid excuse to be fearful of politics.

My parents were born during the “cultural revolution” of China, they’ve learned that “don’t criticize the government = survival” so I can’t exactly blame them for their beliefs, its basically like CPTSD but for politics.

If they have a traumatic childhood and don’t have the mental energy to be dealing with more conflict (such as politics), then they have what is effectively a disability as an excuse, I don’t blame them, hard to stay sane in chaos, go take care of your mental health first.

Oh funny thing is, when I first came to the US

And found out people were DRINKING WATER STRAIGHT FROM THE TAP that was a massive culture shock, in China we had to boil the water.

I mean some water fountains later on added filtering machines, but still, the first water fountain I saw was in a Brooklyn elementary school, don’t think there was a filter… so… yea…

I think I felt kinda disgusted at it at first, I mean, some kids TOUCHED THEIR MOUTH OVER THE THING LIKE EEWWW (that’s kid me’s reaction)

So I avoided drinking from water fountains and I remember always bringing a bottle of water.

I think eventually I got okay with it, but my mom always told me to like turn it on for a few seconds to “flush away the germs” or something so that became a habit. Eventually I just skipped boiling water at home and I drink straight from the tap. (well except now philly had a chemical leak in the water in 2023 so now I don’t wanna drink from the tap anymore)

As I got older I just have more and more germophobia so I really just despise water fountains ever since like middle school, except for when my highschool had the filtering machines. Then I’d fill up a water bottle with it.

As for PARKS, HELL NO. BIRDS FUCKING POOP ALL OVER THE PARK.

Cant even sit on a bench FFS

I remember joking like: “Do these birds taste good?” and dad was like: “You can’t hunt them, that’s illegal in America”

“Sausage, pepperoni, bacon, ham” and I just custom added pineapple

I mean sometimes food doesn’t exactly look the best, but food is for tasting, not for looking lol